Change #1

This really blows. I feel like I can't trust anyone anymore. Every friend I've ever had has completely hurt me in some way. Every guy I have given my heart has broken and buried it. Maybe next year will bring better friends. Or maybe I need a better me... Idk. If god exists, I think he wants to see me grow up and overcome all of this.

I just wish it would happen faster. I want to be myself again. I want to be confident again. I don't want to act like anyone else but I can't help it. I am no better than the preppy girls I make fun of. I'm worse. I'm a total hypocrite....

And that will be the first thing to change.